In part inspired by this, and in part inspired by my professor, I think I may start crime blogging again.

I saw the movie "American Beauty" for the first time recently. The more I think about it, the more it makes sense. It's hard not to relate to every one of the characters in it. There's something about being ordinary and simple that's terrifying.

Two years ago, my friend killed himself, and one of my old friends accidentally ODed and died. At the time, my professor said, "Tell me who your friends are, and I'll tell you who you are. The point isn't that you should abandon or repudiate your friends. You have no reason to, and doing so might be disloyal. But you should analyze what happened to them and find a way to keep them --yourself-- from coming to the same end."

I miss every one of them. Maybe I'll visit my professor soon.