And I'm So Sad, Like A Good Book I Can't Put This Day Back

Monday, December 1, 2008

I've been wondering if being lonely for once would be such a bad thing. I think I'm just freaking out. I had an engagement ring chat this weekend - diamonds, or white sapphire? - and I don't know where I am right now. I want to go through with it. But, there's so much I still haven't done. Not that I couldn't do it if it happened. Could it?

My mother keeps asking me if I'm happy. My sister is going to my city for an interview for a job this weekend. I've given up on Africa, and just about given up on my city, but the thought of her having it is just...just a little too much. One minute I'm sure I should just go for it, and the next minute I think that I can't leave the life I have now.

I almost wish I had someone to make decisions for me.

2 comments:

Karp said...

Well damn, those are some pretty big decisions you have to make. Even if you make the right decision you might still regret it, there is no real win win, I think. Life is about compromise. I wasn't willing to bend, hence why I am still single.

Mark said...

What Karp said. Sounds like you aren't quite ready for that huge step yet. But, what do I know? :) Hope everything turns out well for you!